Uneasy

I been feeling pretty uneasy these few days, I can feel something happening. I don't know what, but just something, and maybe, it's for the better. I went through some of my old pictures and it just tore open my heart, old memories are coming back and it's really starting to get me thinking whether I deserved all this for being such a screwed up and spoilt girl. I wish I was still a baby, with no problems no responsibilities, no idea with what my future upholds for me. Yea, I feel real shitty.


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Cold!

I always forget to bring a jacket to work and I'm freezing :(


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Airport.

I am so bored right now, waiting for my shift to start is killing me, draining the life source out of me :( I just want to go back and do my things, here, waiting, i can't do much except visit my little friends over at the butterfly garden. If I were to say, they are my boredom satisfaction. Am really dying for either ice-cream or tomyum! ~~~~~~~


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Work, work, sleep?

I'm on my way to work and as usual am extremely full from the dinner I bought back from Marina Square. Have to work till late tonight! Plus it's going to be late nights for me these few days. My body's tired but my mind wants to stay up and do everything!


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Life lessons learnt.

I'm at the doctors, and all I see are sick people, sitting, waiting for their turn to see the doctor. Next to me, is an old man. Almost the end of his life, I can tell. So weak and frail, trying his best, using any last bit of energy and life he has left inside of him and yet, is full of hope. Instead of just waiting to die, he's at the doctor doing his monthly check-up. Inspiring isn't it? If I were him, I would be at home waiting for death, filled with the utmost grief that my life on this earth is coming to an end. Sometimes you wonder whether there would be an elixir, an elixir that can make a person live longer or even live forever, but what would this world be if we kept reproducing and not die. There will be no lessons learnt or stories to tell. Life would be so boring, life would have no meaning. Yet, you think about not seeing anyone you love ever die, or ever disappearing and that makes it all the better.


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Optimism.

Just a couple of minutes ago, I realized how pathetically I was living my life. On the way out, I saw two birds basking in the sunlight on this cold and wet evening. To think that these animals could enjoy themselves even on a rainy day and me being the more intellect being can't stop complaining on the horrible weather that has been plaguing me. I kept asking myself, if the birds can be optimistic why can't I be? Being human beings, does it give us the right to complain about things that we have no control over? Or even with things that we do have control over? Well, so many people including myself have been deluded to think that once we complain, everything would be solved, but sadly that is one of the most irrational way of going about solving a problem.

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